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A new look. A new horizon.

Posted by Balphazar on January 1, 2013
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Hey all!

Damn a year has gone by already. So much has gone by and all things considered 2012 has been very interesting indeed. Ill try to recap what happened in 2012 for me and lets see if I can pave myself a path for a more interesting and adventurous future. So many things have happened and I dont know where to start. 

Lets start with gaming after all I am a big gamer and gaming is an integral part of my life. I started out in KSI a community of gamers on xbox. It was fun. In KSI I was on the board and ran many departments and headed many projects like the dept. of education, Human Resource, The courts, The A/V team just to mention a few. Around August I had a falling out with other members of the board and so I left and revamped my own community call Gamerz Dynasty. We are a small community looking to grow and hopefully be something other gamers would look to join. 

Many games were released. A few that were immensely satisfying and a few that were just so bad. For example Halo 4, Borderlands 2 and Hitman are just a few to mention that were beyond amazing. I think the most disappointing game for me was Assassins Creed 3.

In my own personal life many changes have happened. First and foremost Ill mention that I think I may have found the love of my life. That one person that I can see myself spending eternity with. Why her? if there was a few reasons id detail them but Ill try my best to tell you why her. But before that let me just preface by saying that I am one that is very hard to impress and due to my past experiences in relationships I have been inclined to stay single.  But then she came along. I kid you not when I say that she had me falling for her and getting more and more intrigued by her by the second when we started talking and I didnt even realize it. Off the bat she could see pass my masks and walls and was awed at what she saw behind the veil. But best of all is that unlike most people she didnt try to break down my walls and defenses. Instead she snuck in through the back door and into my heart without even alerting me. Her personality is just simply amazing. Her sheer presence puts a smile on my face. Her smiles make my heart flutter and her laughs just make me want to hold her for eternity. So for the next year I aim to actually hold her in my arms and make her mine for real.

Im an optimist but a realist at the same time so I do have a few words Id like to part with. Many atrocities have happened in the past years and so Ill say that please cherish the moments you have because you never know when something may happen. Dont live with regrets and what ifs. go get what you want. Dont sit back and let opportunities fly by because living in regret will get you nowhere. Enjoy life. It is actually very easy. Find joys in the simple pleasures of life. And best of all leave a mark on the world of who you are in the hearts of others. Show the world what you are capable of because your life may fade away and your name may be forgotten but what you teach others will live on for eternity to come.

I wonder about this world sometimes.

Posted by Balphazar on December 26, 2012
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Hello sirs and ma’ams and all you inbetweeners! 

Firstly a little update on my own personal life:

1. I relaunched my gaming community called Gamerz Dynasty in September. I have been working hard on the website and the gaming side for a couple months now and things are coming along fairly nicely. Still working on content for the site but till then lets see. what happens.

2. I met a girl. She is an amazing girl. The first person to actually see right through me to my core and love me for what she saw. Ill do an entire blog to her if anyone is interested later.

3. I got a job at Gamestop. Great place to work at! and Perks are effing awesome!

Now as for me Im going to start doing this every night. Its interesting what one can write about if they just go through their everyday life. Ill make this an online diary or a compilation of events of my life so that maybe one day I can look back at this and laugh and show my kids what their dad was upto when he was growing up.

Also there will always be a little gaming blurb as to what Im gaming and what I think of it.

Currently I picked up XCOM. let me just say that I rarely play RTS games. I have played a few in the past like command and Conquer or Halo wars and such but this plays like chess and I love chess. The story is very plain. Aliens invade earth. You are the commander tasked with killing them. that’s it. But its not about the story line. Its about playing the game. 

They say music can alter moods and talk to you
Well can it load a gun up for you , and cock it too
Well if it can, then the next time you assault a dude
Just tell the judge it was my fault and i’ll get sued
See what these kids do is hear about us totin’ pistols
And they want to get one cause they think the shit’s cool
Not knowin’ we really just protectin’ ourselves, we entertainers
Of course the shit’s affectin’ our sales, you ignoramus
But music is reflection of self, we just explain it, and then we get our
checks in the mail

– Eminem (Sing for a moment)

Recently the nation has been in uproar due to the shooting that took place at a school where a person massacred some children and then offed himself. What I have to say in this matter may appear fucked up to you and you might lose respect for me. Personally speaking these blogs are my thoughts and so if you are reading and dont like what I say stop being a little prick like online gamers and just exit out. You are not being forced to read any of this.

We live in a time where its just you against the world. No one really cares who falls and who gets up as long as there is something in it for them. Its all about self preservation. Family members will stab each other in the back to gain a few coins the other has. Or gain some fame so their names last forever in history and hence their families will have a legacy. We live in a world where being sexually explicit on the internet with no physical contact with a minor will get you a harsher sentence than a pedophile who uses and abuses children for their own pleasures. We are part of a society where we have become so self conscious that  we get offended by the slightest truths. The western society has become so poisonous that moral values and decency have been chucked out in the name of Freedom. What kind of freedom do you exercise that harms those around you. 

Lets just take the Freedom of speech for example. Do you know why it was given by our government so that if they stepped out of line in governing its people you had the right to say so and put it in its place. A government by the people for the people. But in today’s culture it s not just okay but applauded to use to spread lies and public humiliation of others. In the name of freedom of speech the media of today has corrupted the minds of our future and made them afraid of simple things as playing outside  and filled their minds with such hatred and utter stupidity that its almost a wonder that they can be accepted as part of society.

So I say to you oh shooter who massacred all those children thank you. Im sure the parents and family will grieve but Id be more heart broken when my own kids who I raise just leave me and forget about me in an old folks home because that is what today’s society says is the right thing to do. Those children are better off in heaven with God. I bet they look down on us and laugh at our pathetic lives.