Balphazar's Blog

Hey all!

First off id like to thank you all for your kind comments and words. Yea I’m going through some tough emotional times right now. But I’m managing.

I guess it is easier to manage loss when you do have a support. Whether it be in the form of a friend or a random stranger. Sometimes you just need to hear it from someone else that its over and she doesn’t want you. Sometimes it takes a great friend to pick you back up and dust off your shoulder, make you rise again and look forward. Its really hard to actually come by such good friends.

If there was one thing I’m glad as far as my parents’ parenting goes is that they have taught me to deal with lonliness. I’m no expert at it but I’ve found ways to not only easy the agony but also numb the mind to it.

I’m slowly getting over Nicole. Its hard but I am. It helps that there is another chick to keep my mind off of her but at the same time I’ve had to admit it to myself. Denial can ruin you. Sooner or later you have to face facts and the sooner you do the shorter the recovery.

To all my heartbroken people out there trust me when I say that maybe she wasn’t the one after all. Yes I know how much effort and work went into the relationship. I understand that you had amazing times and that maybe it was or wasn’t your fault for the break up. Trust me when I say that you will find someone else. You will. There is someone out there, perhaps right next to you and you don’t realise it, that will eliminate all the pain and suffering all the turmoil in your heart.

I understand that he/she that broke your heart was the one you love and you feel as though that you may not love again or in the same way. But love is a tricky thing. When you have it even if it may be a little of it whether it be in the form of affection or attration it will grow. It will spread. It will overtake and overcome all the negative inside you. It will make you alive again. It will heal you.

It is hard not to think of your ex. Afterall its only the good things that stay in your mind. Like how her lips felt when you kissed. Or how amazing his arms felt when he held you. But all that is in the heart. One day you will see that another love will step into your world and bring the light back in your eyes and the warmth back in your soul.

Just keep busy and don’t lose hope. I’m not saying forget them that is impossible. But don’t give up on love. You are worth it. You may not have been enough for them but for someone else your mere existance means the world to them. Smile and live. You may have lost one but you will gain another.

What are your thoughts? How have you dealt with break ups?