Dino’s Life

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Time goes by and yet the pain stays

Posted by Balphazar on March 4, 2011
Posted in: Blogz for thought, Dino's Life, Relationships. 5 Comments

Hey all!

First off id like to thank you all for your kind comments and words. Yea I’m going through some tough emotional times right now. But I’m managing.

I guess it is easier to manage loss when you do have a support. Whether it be in the form of a friend or a random stranger. Sometimes you just need to hear it from someone else that its over and she doesn’t want you. Sometimes it takes a great friend to pick you back up and dust off your shoulder, make you rise again and look forward. Its really hard to actually come by such good friends.

If there was one thing I’m glad as far as my parents’ parenting goes is that they have taught me to deal with lonliness. I’m no expert at it but I’ve found ways to not only easy the agony but also numb the mind to it.

I’m slowly getting over Nicole. Its hard but I am. It helps that there is another chick to keep my mind off of her but at the same time I’ve had to admit it to myself. Denial can ruin you. Sooner or later you have to face facts and the sooner you do the shorter the recovery.

To all my heartbroken people out there trust me when I say that maybe she wasn’t the one after all. Yes I know how much effort and work went into the relationship. I understand that you had amazing times and that maybe it was or wasn’t your fault for the break up. Trust me when I say that you will find someone else. You will. There is someone out there, perhaps right next to you and you don’t realise it, that will eliminate all the pain and suffering all the turmoil in your heart.

I understand that he/she that broke your heart was the one you love and you feel as though that you may not love again or in the same way. But love is a tricky thing. When you have it even if it may be a little of it whether it be in the form of affection or attration it will grow. It will spread. It will overtake and overcome all the negative inside you. It will make you alive again. It will heal you.

It is hard not to think of your ex. Afterall its only the good things that stay in your mind. Like how her lips felt when you kissed. Or how amazing his arms felt when he held you. But all that is in the heart. One day you will see that another love will step into your world and bring the light back in your eyes and the warmth back in your soul.

Just keep busy and don’t lose hope. I’m not saying forget them that is impossible. But don’t give up on love. You are worth it. You may not have been enough for them but for someone else your mere existance means the world to them. Smile and live. You may have lost one but you will gain another.

What are your thoughts? How have you dealt with break ups?

Rant…

Posted by Balphazar on September 1, 2010
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This blog is just a rant about all the dumb shit happening in my life. if you dont care then good for you. You may stop reading now and go on with your life. If you do care, which would be a surprise to me but whatever peels your banana, do read on.

For the past couple of weeks a lot has been happening in my life that should be cause for stress but I am the type of person who just keeps things shut deep inside and never lets anything bother him. But even I have my limits and so I am using this blog as a venue to vent out my life’s frustration. It honestly makes no difference to me that anyone will or will not read it. Its just a rant.

So I have a girl now, an amazing angel who is really sweet when she wants to be and uber bitchy when she doesnt get her way. All in all I think she is cute and funny in her own unique ways. I am hoping that I can save up enough money for the two of us to move in and start a life together. I dunno if I am even cut out to be in a relationship due to my immaturity and lack of any life experience. But who knows this might actually work out.. but then again.. who am I kidding. This is my life we are talking about. Nothing ever goes right. all good things must come to a horrible and disastrous end.

Also a lot has been happening on xbl. A lot of drama has started up due to someone liking someone. You know how it is. There is always that one hot chick in the group that everyone likes and would like to get with her. When one actually does the rest of the “friends” become arch enemies and are ready to cut each other’s throats. I used to get on xbl to get away from life’s problems and people’s shinanigans. but it seems that wherever people are their bullshit and problems always follow.. I had to deal with such bullshit today and I feel kinda bad for cussing out a buddy of mine but In my opinion he deserved it. My thing is that you should leave your bullshit at home when you come on xbl. otherwise get a life and learn to deal with your problems.

I dunno.. lets see how life pans out.

Got flooded

Posted by Balphazar on June 22, 2010
Posted in: Dino's Life, Gaming Newz. 1 Comment

Hello internutterz!

I apologise for not posting the past couple days. I have been very busy helping my mom shop for different things for her trip overseas and then yesterday my basement got flooded. We lost a lot of garments in the flood and a couple electronic devices. I am pleased to say that my dear xbox survived hurricane water heater exploder! lol!

So now lets talk about stuff happening in my life!

First things first is the update on whether or not I am making a new clan or not. As of this moment I am leaning towards highly unlikely. But on the flip side I may be planning on joining gUi (Gamerz Under the Influence). These guys are comprised of 3 creators and their members. They range to about 200 members I believe but dont quote me on that. These people are your average kick but gamerz whose main goal in life online is to have fun and promote it. As my dear queen has put it very eloquently, “Its just a game people.”

Also I think my dilemma that I have been faced with for the past couple of days has been resolved. I am going to be buying a Samsung 44″ HDTV from best buy in the coming weeks. Gotta save up about $800. The TV looks sexy as hell and would be a nice addittion to the living room. Also I plan on buying the new Xbox 360 in about 2 months. I have to wait a bit to see if it has some serious defects like most of microsoft’s new releases.

Now some interesting news!

So I did my complete homework on E3 (Electronic Entertainment Expo) and I must say that There are some amazing things to come! Let me recap a few things for you as far as Microsoft is concerned.

Lets start things of with the amazing Natal a.k.a Kinect which in my opinion is the dumbest name for a game add-on. It sound uber uncool and super simple. but whatever. It delivers amazing stuff. When Kinect comes out it will release a couple games exclusively for Kinect. There is a sports game, similar to the Wii Sports, a dancing game that makes DDR look easy, a fishing game, an excersise or fitness game and another I cant remember right now. If you guys need footage on it I will be providing links to all of MS E3 at the end. Watch and be AMAZED!

Next up in the line of awesomeness is METAL GEAR SOLID: RISING. Now this babey looks fucking sexy and amazing. Talk about taking one of the greatest games on the sony platform and then raising the bar on it 10 folds and you have Rising. My description of it cannot do it justice. Fo all you MGS fans out there let me just tell you that you play as Raiden the GAY looking white guy who wears extra tights so much so you can see everything. But the game seems to be amazing. Main focus is on sword play but you get to do some gun fights as well. Watch the video and tell me what you think.

Now Gears of War 3 will also be released next year and it doesnt seem all that different. In a way I am glad cuz the GoW series is epic as it is in its gameplay and story line. A new addition though is that you get to play as Ania and there will be a 4 player co-op available this time around. Mr Ice T is suppose to be a voice actor for one of the characters as well.

Now I am feeling lazy so here are the videos. If you like what you see, hit me a comment and I will love you.

A new era of Gaming

Posted by Balphazar on June 20, 2010
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Hellos internutterz!

So I have been thinking that maybe I should come back to the whole gaming community buisness but this time I’m going to do things a bit different.

I was thinking that everything outside of xbox would be on Facebook. Also there would be a monthly fee of 5 dollars to be in the community. The money donated/given would be put to use to buy prizes. Prizes would go from anything ranging from xbl gold to ms points to gaming equipment. I was thinking I might do a monthly drawing and maybe even give out cash prizes. We will definetly have MLG setup for every team and I would sponsor people for tourneys and such. We would have affilliations with Gamestop and maybe even 360junkies. If there are others you would want me to get in touch with let me know.

All recruits are to be verified by me for now, since we wont be so big from the get go. Absolutely no squeakers and immature asses allowed.

These are just thoughts for now. Nothing is written in stone. I am always up for suggestions so please hit me up and let me know what you think. I was also thinking of removing the whole rank system. but we will see.

The other option would be to keep everything as I had it in Gamerz Dynasty but for the weekly tourneys and events make people pay to play if they wish to win prizes.

I need a chill pill

Posted by Balphazar on June 20, 2010
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Hey internutterz!

Its me again. Right now as I right this I laugh at myself for being so fucking pissed off. Now for those of you who have been playing with me online or know me, I am a very friendly guy. I think I have a lot of patience but then again what do I know. One cannot be a fair judge of oneself now can they.

So let me tell you guys the reason for me uber pissed today. As most of you are aware, I work with a nonprofit youth organization. Practically every Sunday the youth in my group meets and we spend time together doing various activities. We do things ranging anywhere from sitting and watching a movie to playing sports to just chilling. Now today there were a couple new faces that came and wanted to be part of our activities. I was skeptical cuz I knew of the behavior of these fools but I was persuaded to let it go and allow them to have some fun with us. Now these kids are known to everyone as the troublemakers of the neighborhood. I don’t know how fucked up their family is or if their so called parents even give a shit about their kids. Anyways we allowed them to play a couple games of volley ball with us and then we went back to eat some pizza and an interesting Jamaican dish one of our chefs made for us. Now out of the goodness of our hearts we fed these jack asses. Now granted due to their background we had to take certain precautions so we had them sit outside in the shade and we served them pizza and watermelon and everything. They ended up fighting over the food like a couple of rabid dogs. They made a mess, yet again, with the food we gave them and we had to clean up after them. Again! So we told them that they are not welcome anymore and to leave. Now they started to make fun of us and started calling us out for a fight and what not. We let it go and just laughed it off. Some of the elders talked to them but I doubt that mattered to them. So now we end up leaving and this nigger, yes I said nigger in the fucked up way it is referred to black people, insulted my dad. So we chase this kid around the block and this pussy just dips. What a complete pussy ass nigger.

Karate Kid Review

Posted by Balphazar on June 15, 2010
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Hello my fellow internutterz!

Before I start this review I give you all fare warning that I will include *SPOILERZ*. So if you are the type that doesnt like spoilerz then please read no further.

Ok so I went to see Karate Kid Starring Jackie Chan (a.k.a The new Mr. Miyagi) and Jaden Smith. If I were to describe the movie in one word I would definetly say EPIC! But then there would be no reason for a blog if I was only to use one word.

The movie begins with Dre (Jaden Smith) moving to China because his mother got a transfer due to her job working in the car manufacturing industry. Once in China, Dre makes an aqcuaintance with an english speaking fellow who gives Dre a piece of advice to learn some chinese now that he is living in China. Dre goes and hangs out at the playground and “plays” basketball but makes a fool of himself. I thought that bit was kinda cute cuz every new kid likes to act all tough when in actuality he/she knows nothing about the task at hand. While he is making a fool of himself he keeps looking at a cute chinese chick who is quietly sitting on a bench listening to Bach (Amazing Classical Violin)

Anyways, he finally plucks the courage to go and introduce himself and soon enough *insert dramatic evil music* Enter Mr. Bully. Now usually asians dont seem to open their eyes much but DAMN! these chinese kids when they scowl or get pissed their eyes are wide open! lol!

Well the next half hour or so is your usual bully verses new kid routine. I must say I did like the little prank Dre pulled on them. And of course Mr. Miyagi enters to save his life and take him in as a student. There was an interesting plot twist that happens but I guess they needed to find a way to get a scrawny kid like Dre into the tournament somehow. Of course once he becomes the student of Mr. Miyagi he trains, enters the tourney and wins.

Now for those who have seen the original Karate Kid here are some similarities that you will see.

First off, There is a bully involved. The bully has a teacher who is a straight up dick. They train and instead of doing house hold chores as training, Dre takes his jacket off and puts it back on. And finally Dre beats the Bully using The Crane technique (in this case the Cobra-staring-at-you-and-getting-inside-your-head technique).

All in all the movie was awesome. I did not do justice to the movie with this review mostly because there is a second story in the movie that you will just have to see to enjoy. It is what brings everything together.

Balphazar give Karate Kid a 5/5

What do you think? If you have seen the movie, let me know what you thought.

A crappy day…

Posted by Balphazar on June 9, 2010
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hello people!

Today is Tuesday and today was one of the crappiest days ever. Tuesdays are usually my day off and so I usually try to have fun. Not today though. Today was one problem after another to the point where now I’m so annoyed. Lets start with the beginning.

I went to sleep at around 2am and had an okay sleep. Overnight my allergies started acting up and by the time I woke up I had a fever and was sneezing blood and coughing all over the place. Yea, I know thats gross but whatever. I was thinking that my day cant get any worse and then I am proven wrong when I get a txt message from my ex. I really wish that girl would leave me alone. I left her because she didnt have time for me. I mean come one how busy in life do you have to be that you cant make time for your boyfriend. Why do I have to make an appointment to hang out with you? Anyways that got me a little worked up that now she misses me that I am out of her life and what not. I was frustrated by my headaches and sneezing that I went back to bed. I woke up at 2pm and I still felt crappy. I made a few calls to get the site up and running. I’m glad that issue is resolved.

I went back to sleep after that cuz I felt exhausted after a few calls. Wow.. I sound really lame right now. Anywhos, I woke up and my mom made me some chicken noodle soup after my 1 1/2 long bath.. I fell asleep in the shower under the oh so warm water. The soup helped a bit but even now I am so sick..

So I get online and yet again life will not leave me alone. One party inv after another just to answer questions about issues happening in Gamerz Dynasty. I solved one issue regarding a fellow GD member but it seems that I screwed up. Now I am being labeled as showing favortism by the same people who helped build this community and vowed to keep bullshit and power abuse out of it. I thought I was being fair.. but maybe I am showing favortism.. I would definetly like if someone can sit me down and just talk to me.. cuz honestly I need someone right now.. getting back with the ex actually looks like an option right now.. *sigh*

Well that was my crappy day..

Care to leave a comment? Plz do.

Till next time!

Peace!