The simple act of being a friend to someone is enough to change someone’s brain chemistry to be better. Friends are hard to come by. True friends. People worthy of the entitlement of friend. Not your average joe who you met along the way but a person who knows you for who you are and can make decisions for you not the ones you would make but judgement calls so that you would be better as a person and human being. That is a friend. One that isn’t afraid to say no nor is he afraid to say yes when the moment arises. A true friend is one that no matter what you say or do he or she will always be there for you. No amount of hurt or pain can cause them to shun you away. It is only by disregarding them, by abusing them, by using them, by not being thankful of them will you ever lose a friend. So remember the next time you are mean or abusive or neglectful in your duties towards a person. By doing so you may have lost your chance of making a friend.
Its 5:36 in the morning and I’ve finally gotten around to writing another one of my meaningless meaningful thoughts. As most of you already know Im a single guy. Life as a single guy is very simple and straight forward bogged down only by the drama of work and the friends he hangs out with. The past couple weeks have been very interesting for me and as such my thoughts have been contemplating on this subject.
So my question to all of you readers is simple and yet one of the greatest mysteries of life. What is love? the short answer is that it is an immense feeling of purpose and belonging to a person or thing. Before we go further into the meaning and definition of love let me tell you why I am asking this and a few questions pertaining to this very subject of love.
At the age of 12 a great incident took place in my life that caused me to examine myself for the first time and give myself a stern personality makeover. What I did was beat my brother half to death. So much so that he was hospitalized for a couple weeks so that his bones could be repaired. It is safe to assume that I had anger management issues. I guess I get that from my dad’s side of the family. But I dont buy into that. Where it may be true that there are certain impulses that run in certain families and dare not subject myself to the notion that one cannot control onself. After all we are the human race and we did not make it to the top of the food chain by being cumpulsive. No. We are more rational than that.
One would expect that my parents would have beat the living hell out of me and/or disowned me after that. Alas such was not the case. My mother sat me down shortly after and spoke to me very softly but seriously. She spoke to me as a mother with love and affection for her child and I paid attention. It was one of the few words of wisdom she told me or steered me to that I have thus constructed my life to revolve around. She told me if I understood what I had done to my brother. I replied yes. And then she said a simple self reflecting question. A thought provoking conundrum if you will. She asked me simply “Can you imagine if that was your son in there and due to your anger he ended up in a hospital because of you?” After that day I have not had an episode where I have lost control of my anger to that extent.
How did I manage to do that you may ask. Well the short answer is that I employed the philosophy of mind over matter. When surges of emotions overpower you, the mind is rarely able to make sound decisions. One of my biggest flaws was anger and thus I had to gain control over it fast. So I started observing myself and quantifying myself and my behaviour. This lead to me laughing at certain things in life that previously would make me furious towards others.
As you are reading this you might be thinking well what does my anger have to do with the question what is love? The thing is ever since the age of 12 I have been observing myself and also others. Quantifying emotions to the point that they can be represented as concious decisions and rational. one may see that as a positive thing. It is a great way to gain control over one’s life but the down side is just as costly. One cannot connect on an emotional level with people. So for those of you who are in loving and working relationships try your hands at this. What is love? How do you define love? Is love just an emotion or feeling? if so then how is love just enough for you? People say that when you love someone you love them unconditionally. How do you fall in love to that extent with someone? I understand that these are hard questions and honestly I dont expect many or any replies but if you are so bold or you have an answer for me Ill be happy to read them.
Today is Tuesday and today was one of the crappiest days ever. Tuesdays are usually my day off and so I usually try to have fun. Not today though. Today was one problem after another to the point where now I’m so annoyed. Lets start with the beginning.
I went to sleep at around 2am and had an okay sleep. Overnight my allergies started acting up and by the time I woke up I had a fever and was sneezing blood and coughing all over the place. Yea, I know thats gross but whatever. I was thinking that my day cant get any worse and then I am proven wrong when I get a txt message from my ex. I really wish that girl would leave me alone. I left her because she didnt have time for me. I mean come one how busy in life do you have to be that you cant make time for your boyfriend. Why do I have to make an appointment to hang out with you? Anyways that got me a little worked up that now she misses me that I am out of her life and what not. I was frustrated by my headaches and sneezing that I went back to bed. I woke up at 2pm and I still felt crappy. I made a few calls to get the site up and running. I’m glad that issue is resolved.
I went back to sleep after that cuz I felt exhausted after a few calls. Wow.. I sound really lame right now. Anywhos, I woke up and my mom made me some chicken noodle soup after my 1 1/2 long bath.. I fell asleep in the shower under the oh so warm water. The soup helped a bit but even now I am so sick..
So I get online and yet again life will not leave me alone. One party inv after another just to answer questions about issues happening in Gamerz Dynasty. I solved one issue regarding a fellow GD member but it seems that I screwed up. Now I am being labeled as showing favortism by the same people who helped build this community and vowed to keep bullshit and power abuse out of it. I thought I was being fair.. but maybe I am showing favortism.. I would definetly like if someone can sit me down and just talk to me.. cuz honestly I need someone right now.. getting back with the ex actually looks like an option right now.. *sigh*
Well that was my crappy day..
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Till next time!